Does anybody need a dance as bad as I do?
Am I in the twilight zone? I just realized that the summer is almost over....and still no dancing. This girl lives to dance. I dance to make the stress go away. I dance to go to my happy place. My happy place is on a dance floor, preferably at the OD Pavilion with the ocean breeze at my back. As Marvin Gaye would say..."What's Goin' On?" Depression is settin' in and I need to DANCE!
My closet is full of summer clothes that haven't been worn. My standard outfit for these past months has been cut off jeans and a tee shirt. My flip flops haven't been on a dance floor. They're sad....very sad.
I've been lucky...as I've worked with the general public throughout most of this virus and still find myself healthy. I've lost a couple of friends to the virus. Yes, I know I've been blessed with good health. But, I really need to dance. It's my therapy. Dance keeps life's negative realities at bay for me. It's a time for me to slip into my own little world and find my happy place.
I'm sure most of you, like me, thought this virus would run it's course and things would get back to normal soon enough. Well, soon enough has turned into what seems like eternity. I miss my friends and I miss my life as it used to be. Will it never end? Gawd....I need it to end.
I've been stuck in a rut of eat, sleep...go to work...repeat..over and over. Have to admit that if it wasn't for work I'd have gone over the edge by now. At least I get to interact with people, away from the reality of being stuck at home with my thoughts....and family. I love my family, but I've been living alone for a long, long time...and they're gettin' on my nerves. The virus set in and I've had a house full of family for too long!
In the past many months I've been a school teacher, a chef, a maid and a daycare worker. And don't forget the full time job (thank goodness). I'm ready for some ME time. I need to throw away the mask and get out to hug some folks...and DANCE!
Cabin fever? You bet! I need some socialization with friends...laughin', DANCIN'...Are 'ya with me?
And I don't want to talk politics! Get my drift? Let's have some good times . I check in on Facebook and it takes me about 2 minutes to shut it down. It's hard to "stay in touch" with your friends when all you see is politics. I have about three friends on Facebook who have stayed away from it. So....I check in on them and get the heck out of there. My Facebook "memories" have run out and for the past few months that's all I've had to post because NOTHING has been going on in my life. I've come to the realization that 2020 is down the drain...as I've made no new memories to share. Seems like memories are all I have to cling to in order to keep my sanity...thinkin' about the things we used to do.
Should I mention "fat"? After working so hard last year to lose my baby fat this virus has given me the excuse to eat anything and everything. I don't even look in the mirror any more. In the beginning I was cooking at home and making sure it was healthy and yummy. But the boredom of this crazy Corona has sent me spiraling on a fast food binge. Taco Bell and Krispy Kreme have become my best friends...and my worst enemy. Does anybody else feel the pain?
Help me, Lord...to overcome my weaknesses. I know I'm doin' wrong but the temptations are just too strong. When I look in my closet of unworn clothes I break out in a sweat knowing not to try anything on as it will definitely no longer fit.
Please, please, PLEASE...Make this thing called Corona go away. I can't take it any more! My dogs won't even dance with me any more. We are doomed!
Where I used to dance off all of the bad things in life I now can only dream. I'm impatiently waiting for the day when Miss BayBay can put the music back on and we can dance. You know...like the old days?
Thanks for droppin' in...how about your take on the mess we're in? Feel free to leave a comment.
